When You Feel Like HOPE is Gone



I had a situation of literal “hope” disappearing recently. I have been making recordings for a meditation and sound healing music album. And I put together a whole bunch of tracks with viola, violin, and vocals and was just feeling like - this is finished and I can send it to someone to have them master the tracks. And then the next time I opened my computer. . .

The song I had titled “HOPE” was gone. I tried a variety of methods to find the files and they were simply not there. As I was getting really upset because I worked a long time on this song, I tried to sit with this and figure out if there was some lesson to be learned here and suddenly these song lyrics came to me

“When you feel like hope is gone, look inside you and be strong. And you’ll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you.” (Maria Carey)

Since I have no idea if my song will ever be found and there is nothing I can really do about it, I decided it was just some sort of cosmic message to remind myself to not take life so seriously and that I could actually find hope within my heart. If I simply cast my fears aside and find that strength to survive the challenges I’m facing.


These last few months have been bringing a lot of possible changes into my life and it’s been overwhelming, tear-inducing, and simply full of wonder. So, if you are looking for hope and feeling like you don’t have any, just know I can relate. However, I did also create a really lovely meditation improvisation that weaves around Amazing Grace. That one the original files also are missing, but luckily I had already sent it to someone to be mastered and so I do have a final version that I plan to sell through digital platforms eventually. So, hope might be missing, but not grace! I have written my own songs and performed since I was a child, but I have never actually been on a fully produced music recording and it's time to change this. I think the lesson for me is that hope is always within us if we stop to look.